like blankets

>> Thursday, June 21, 2012

It hits me when I'm in my room alone, listening to them run up and down the one hallway in our little house, grabbing what they need from a treasure box in the bedroom or digging a car out from the shelf in the closet. What will they remember about these years? What little snapshots burn into their brains, and how much bigger will this little house feel to them in their memories?

I love how safe they feel. It should be that way for children, feeling safe and secure and belonging somewhere. My memories of the comfort of my childhood home - how solidly it was mine, how much of a place I had there - are so real they feel touchable, and I think about that when I hear them work their way through our house, knowing just where their things have been stashed, knowing where things go and how they work and where to find their brother or mother or father or their dog or chickens.



We were camping last weekend, an annual Father's Day tradition for us, and we sat around the fire telling the boys stories about when they were littler. They were thrilled to be up late, in the dark, talking around the fire pit together. We told story after story - some just little snippets and glimpses - and their eyes would flicker with recognition and they'd croon, "Yeaaaaah.... I remember that!"

"Let's keep talking about remembers," he said, perched upright and eager in his mini-camping chair.

Those stories wrapped them up like blankets, layers of comfort and security and belonging. Who doesn't relish discovering who they are and where they've been, learning how the people we love the most see us through the stories they remember and tell, feeling just how much we belong to and with the people who make up the stuff of which our stories are made.


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just the essentials

>> Friday, June 15, 2012

The boys finished school on Tuesday, so today we pack up for our first camping trip of the summer. Eli made a list of what to bring. 


I think it looks just about perfect. 



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stories

>> Sunday, June 10, 2012

I don't really write anymore and I miss it very much. The compulsion to get it down still comes, but the task of moving it all from thought to written word seems daunting, an obstacle -- the dedication of pen to paper to evoke the sentiment that courses through my head and heart sits on the other side of a great hill called Resistance, and I'm not always up for the climb.

We spent the weekend at the waterfront festival, music and games and delicious food - the annual start of summer in this part of town we inhabit. It hit me today that eight years ago I was there with my 9 month old baby, alone while my husband worked all weekend. I wandered through the crowd with my baby in a sling, people-watching and taking in the music. Still newish to town, I didn't really know anyone and watched with a pang of longing for a place in the community that so obviously pulsed in that park.

Eight years later, we're there with our boy-tribe and they run with a pack of feral children, covered in playground dust and icecream drippings. We walk two feet and trip over our friends and schoolmates and midwives and cashiers at the co-op and owners of our favorite restaurants. We wrangle each other's children and hand out quarters for the bean bag toss and we laugh good-naturedly at the new parents who look on with a bit of shock at the way our big kids descend upon the playground, Darwin's laws in action.

Our seeds have sprouted and we've grown up and bloomed in this community because the soil was fertile and the sun has shined and shined. It's rained some, too. But we weather those storms together, as well.

I'm out there living it right now, and I'm pulling from my village to keep me upright and moving each day. I'm not getting it down as much as I'd like to, these stories that float and fly and sing between us, the stories that grow up and curl around our feet, climbing right into our hearts.

But they're there in my heart, these days we're living, and I do believe the stories will surface one day, one way or another.

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soundtrack: Lumineers, Daytrotter Studio session 

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